Flu.....annchoooooooooo !!

The Pandemic strikes....Isha has flu like symptoms and the doctor speculates it could be swine flu and has put her on vaccination, she is feeling so miserable and has been throwing up :( Her temperature has been fluctuating and does not come to normal, she has a running nose and does not want to eat anything. I pray to god that she gets well soon and feels better.

Tana doesn't understand that flu is contagious and is all the time trying to cootchie cooo to Isha and has given her a new nickname - Ku Ku... I don't know why, i have been warning and scolding her but for her everything is play and fun. I am worried that she will catch the flu from Tana and then it will be more trouble.

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Worry !

Isha has temperature and very bad cold because of which she is irritated and constantly crying, my poor baby. She is teething and about to get her first teeth. I have been applying all home remedies to give her relief and praying that she feels better. Will be taking her to the doctor tomorrow. Because of her illness i did not travel and will be taking leave tomorrow or working from home.

Pray for her to get well soon.

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More or less

I miss Tana's questions now as i don't spend that much time with her and when i see her on the weekend she doesn't ask much as tends to play with her toys and other things :( Isha is happy to see me and gets very excited, i look forward to see her and spend time with her and Tana. Mommy is been a great help and is managing as much as she can - but sometimes i feel she is getting old.

When you work the personal lives get affected by the professional life and vice versa, how much ever we try to keep them separate but they have an impact on one another. So when you are in office you sometime forget the family or end up thinking about them and when you are at home you think about the office, pending work and worry !

I realised that some people when they start earning more, want to save more and spend less and start cutting down on the small pleasures of life. Then they are the others who when earn more, spend more than they can afford. One must learn to strike a balance between the two and live a happy life, think and save for the future but do not neglect your present in saving for the future. Live life with no regrets and don't think in future that i should have done this in the past.


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Nov 27th 2009 - 32

It was my birthday and i am 32 years young now. Missed writing the blog yesterday as was busy with the kiddos who had got a beautiful card and their papa made Tana's & Isha's hand print on the card..that was so cute and touching.

Praying to god that i get the strength to live up to every one's expectations and make the right decisions, guide in the right direction and help me be a better person.

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Little bump

Tana got a little bump on her forehead when playing in school, the school authorities informed about it and asked to take her early. My mommy was so worried and tensed after the phone call, i can imagine her as she tends to get worried over little things. I haven't seen Tana still but will see her tomorrow and know the actual thing by myself, but i am cool and relaxed (unlike other mother's). I guess i believe in my heart she is all right and have faith that she will be fine.

Been trying to get an travel request created through my office intranet and have not been able to do it from past 12 days and it is driving me crazy seeing the unprofessional attitude of the people and trying putting the blame on someone else. Why don't they do the work and try to help the employee rather than emailing each other. God knows will it be done this year or not ? As a lot of things are linked to it and will have impact on me.

Important day tomorrow...let's see how it goes :0)

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Task completed

Finally submitted the document to client for review.

It was very cold today and inspite of wearing the gloves my hands were freezing ! Day was hectic in the first half and then was fine by the end of the day. I was wondering there are so many people who are in a profession which they know very little but are managing their work through help and support of others. Sometimes i wonder how do they survive for so long !

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Pati Parmeshwar !!!

Surprise ....surprise...surprise....shocked to know my hubby was reading my blog ....mmm

Finally managed to complete the document and will be releasing it tomorrow afternoon. Then will begun the version updates and reviews till it is signed off. Anyways nothing interesting happening in the office other than that work will be getting hectic in the coming weeks.

Spoke with Isha & Tana and they seem fine. Isha has learned to dance and we love enjoy watching her, shall try and upload her video on the blog if possible.

message from my hubby to be put on the blog : he is my "Pati Parmeshwar" ! My reply to his message in his dreams :)

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Hectic day

It was such a hectic day that i did not speak with Isha, Tana and mama for the first time since i have joined office, was busy completing a document which needs to be released to the client. Sometimes you get so immersed in the work that you forget all the basic important things like calling your loved ones :( Professional life takes over the personal life!

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Practice what you read !

Complained about the lady who had come to help as a maid as i was not happy with her way of working. The employer agreed and said will speak to her and to give her a second chance, which i will and hopr this time she would work as expected.

Spend time playing with Isha and cuddling Tana after a long time and taught Isha -head banging the rock show style, she shakes her head when asked to dance :) Tana started crying as i was leaving home to come back to my work place, quite strange to see such a reaction from her, but she was ok after a while.

Reading an interesting book and learning a lot from it only thing is i need to start practising it!

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Money's worth

Took the help of a maid service and got someone to clean the home, vacuuming, scrubbing etc but then i think i did not get my money's worth because the lady seem chatty and did not love her job, which is very important in the housekeeping job. I did not get the satisfaction i was expecting and hence will have to rethink again or ask for a replacement, as i feel when i am paying for the service it should be of professional standard.

I don't know why i get irritated and angry so soon during weekend and always shouting and scolding others. How much ever i try to tell myself to calm down and be patient it does not seem to work. Tana is getting on my nerves and all the time making Isha cry. May be it is staying away from my kids which is bothering me, and i am showing it on them only :(

Lord please give me the patience and control over my anger.

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Deadline missed !

Missed the deadline to submit the document...the fault is with us as well as the person on other end who did not provide the data on time, now the target is to complete it by next week hopefully.

Reached in 3 hours...quite amazing when compared to my previous project. Isha was not able to recognise me :( that's what i felt as she would not come to me and when i changed from my office clothes she was able to connect and came to me thankfully! She has learned to crawl and clap which she showed off very proudly :). Tana hasn't changed much but what is really worrying me she does not like to share things and can be mean, which really upsets me as i don't want my kid to be selfish and self centered. Hope she will change with time.

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Tiring day

It was a tiring day as the documentation work is increasing and i have not been able to complete it. Have been trying to register with ebay from last 2 hours :( still some problem exists. Weekend has already arrived and tomorrow i travel back to be with Tana & Isha :)

Isha has learnt to clap and crawl ...i am missing it, but getting updates from hubby.

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Horses and donkey !

People look forward for the weekend to relax but i don't get to relax and hence i don't look forward for the weekend. I was telling to a colleague that during the week we work like horses and on the weekend like a donkey with all the household pending chores, cleaning and scrubbing ! Only thing that makes me happy about the weekend is seeing my kids and being with them.

Tana is troubling my hubby a lot in my absence and getting on his nerves. I need to speak to her about it. Now my hubby is understanding what i was going through when handling her and the house...at last he is partly in my shoes !

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Fraud !!!

It was an ordinary & busy day at office with documentation and mails exchange. Got registered at the local library and its a small, sweet place. Later had a long chat with a close colleague and it was nice talking to him and catching up on the last one year and the things that happened in the previous project.

Came to know about attempt of using my debit card's for fraudulent transaction in US for 1$, (Yes one dollar) which was pretty scary. The bank got suspicious and blocked my account, god bless them. Now waiting for the new card.

Isha recognises my voice and is excited to hold the phone and listen to it...so sweet and cute, bless her ! Tana is always asking, " mama aap kab aa rahi ho ? She is always complaining about Isha, Nani or her papa, she is a complaint master.

Read an interesting mail today:

You cannot judge a tree, or a person, by only one season,
and that the essence of who they are
and the pleasure, joy, and love that come
from that life can only be measured at the end,
when all the seasons are up.
If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the promise of your spring,
the beauty of your summer, and fulfillment of your fall.
Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest.
Don't judge life by one difficult season

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Lots of documentation to read and loads to write...the project is in the 2nd stage and so the engine is picking up steam and then it will be on fast track which means less time for networking, blogging and family :(
Anyways hope i should be able to take time out for all the important things outside office. Sometimes some changes happen in a person and you can do nothing about it as you see the other person is not willing to change and it will only create a gap in your relationship, so it is better u "learn to accept them as they are " - i guess there is a time, place and age to change for some and for others who are willing, all doors are open !

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Packing & unpacking....

Was a hectic day with packing, travelling and then unpacking ! Life is back to regular drill now and thankfully my travelling time is less when compared to last project.

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Weekend !!!

Was travelling yesterday and after reaching home was too excited to see the kids hence missed the blog. Isha was very happy to see me as she wondered (i think) where i had vanished and suddenly came back, as i was talking to her daily over the phone she was able to hear me but not see me. She hugged me and stay in my arms for a long time.
Today was hectic with all the cleaning and shopping to be done. I cannot stand a unclean home, especially kitchen and bathroom so was busy as usual vacuuming and cleaning. When you work you want to relax on the weekend and do other personal things which you did not get time to do, but when u live abroad the weekends are spend doing all the cleaning, washing, grocery shopping and getting tired...eventually you don't look forward for the weekend and prefer the weekdays !!! Was nagging and cribbing throughout the day as was tired and irritated with things and people.

Tana's question for the day:
Why is a cauliflower called a flower when it is not a flower ?

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Anticipation.....

Thankfully managed to get down at the right bus stop and reached office within 15 minutes, can u believe it ! I was suppose to get down at the 2nd bus stop which i missed and lost my way !
Slowly getting grasp of the office work and getting to know more about the requirements and people. Life is getting into a routine of office/home and then my weekend trip to with family. Yippee i will see Isha & Tana tomorrow, looking forward to see Isha's reaction.

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Got lost...or say Lost my way !

What a way to reach office - got lost or should i say lost my way as got down at the wrong bus stop which was on a highway and waited for bus for more than 20 minutes. Then decided to call a cab, but i didn't know where i was so what would i tell him ? So walked to the nearest house and knocked ...no reply, then tried the next home ....it was locked. Thankfully saw a council guy who was passing by and he helped me out. God bless him and his family!
Office was fine, got introduced to the whole team.

Today is my Paa's birthday...Happy Birthday to you Papa ! Have a great day and a great year ahead. Love u loads and proud to be your daughter.

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New Project

Did not have internet access as was travelling so did not post blog yesterday :(

What an hectic week i have had, my god everything went so fast and quick i didn't know where the time go ? Anyways i have started work after a loooonnng break and joined office today in my new project which is in a place closer to Leicester, which means i will be away from home from Monday to Friday and travel on Friday evenings to be with kiddo's and family. Yep life is quite hectic when u live abroad and you make so many sacrifices only to have a better future. But sometimes i feel in trying to make a better future you are missing the present and not living it ! It is sad, you know what is to be done but then you compromise and adjust for the sake of family and happiness of your loved ones. I feel sometimes marriage is about adjusting andaccommodating family's needs before yours and only when you adjust and adapt yourself, you do become successful !

I was telling Tana that i will miss her and Isha a lot during the week when i am away, she immediately asked me, " what about Papa ? and what about Nani ? " Cute isn't the way children seem to observe the things you say. I got upset with her when i was about to leave as she was crying over something she misplaced and wanted me to search it. I was angry as i was waiting for the cab to some. Later when i thought about the incident in train i cursed myself for being upset with her. So called and spoke to her and check if she was fine. She was fine and busy watching cartoon channel, and i was cursing myself !!!
Isha smiles and giggles when she hears my voice on the phone, she understands that its mommy but cannot express, i miss her a lot :(

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Difference

Things that need to be tidy, clean and sparkling when your mom is arriving :
The house ; the kitchen ; bathroom ; cupboards ; overall everything.
Important to do are : dress up kids, dress up yourself and finally the dressing of food :0).
Now the difference when your MIL is arriving is a "very" gets added in front of everything that is to be spic & span ;0)

Jokes apart, my mom has arrived and that is such a relief as she can handle the kids when i join office...hmm. So i am trying to finish my pending tasks and arrange things before i leave for office.

Tana is becoming quite attached to me as i have told her i will be joining office and she keep saying i will miss you....sweet isn't it.
Her questions which for the day were:
1. Why do we get old ?
2. What is infection ?
3. What and how is operation done ?

Isha has a feeling that something is happening and keeps looking at me and giving all smiles, and making me feel guilty about leaving her and going :(

Had quite a hectic day !

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How ....when ....what ?

Lots to do ...mmm, How to do....mmm, When to do what ...mmm
sometime this can be so confusing that u end up doing nothing !!

Tana has learnt two new things which i found irritating - one she says "i will not be your friend " for anything and everything when you try her to stop from doing something. Secondly she is trying to be rude and at times nags me constantly for something :(

I had quite a hectic day with running around the whole day and getting wet too :(

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Worrying !

Isha is becoming very naughty by the day and is always up to something. She was playing on the bed when she slid between the gap of the bed and the wall and started playing with the lamp shade :0) Only kids are capable of thinking and doing something which you can't even imagine !

Life and its ways are mysterious and curious at times. When you are worrying about something and feeling low about it, nothing happens. But the moment you decide not to bother, stop worrying and carry on with life, by saying to yourself, "what the heck ?" all things fall in place and move smoothly :0) But this is only till another problem comes up and confuses you and the same worrying starts again ....its a circle my friend, a never ending circle, which ends only with your last breath.

Sometimes i wonder that when we write official mails, why do use complicated words to say simple things ? I just did that :( and then thought about the mistake !

Admist all these worries and confusions i saw the promo of "Paa" today, a new movie of AB to be released on 4th December.....i am speechless after watching it, dying to watch the movie !

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Miss you !

I was playfully scolding Isha for being naughty and telling her she would miss me when i am gone, Tana darling immediately said, "agar aap Isha ko scold karengi tuo woh aap ko miss nahin karegi !! I was shocked and asked her kya matlab ? agar mein aap ko dantungi tuo aap mujhe miss nahin karengi ? she very honestly replied - YES ! Can you believe this, the way kids think these days !

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Conclusion

Tana's school started after a week's break and she was excited about going to school as they were having the class photo today. I am sometime tired with her standard,everyday reply of what she did in school, she always replies the same answer, i know the answer even before i ask her the question daily hoping, she would give me a different & elaborated answer but no, her answer always is the same " khela" !!! Never anything elaborate or different.

Isha missed her afternoon siesta again today and would not go to sleep and this was driving me mad, as i had lot of preparations to do for the evening pooja. Did the "Udhyapan " / conclusion today and thanked god that i was able to complete my fast for 16 Monday's without interruption as planned. Things are moving fast at the professional front, hope something works out soon and then i can be back in office :0)

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Last week .....2

Saturday/ 31st Oct:

Happy Halloween Day : Trick or treat :0) Isha wore her first Halloween shirt and looked cute. She got scared when the kids came to collect candies and started crying...poor baby. Tana enjoyed giving them the chocolates, she is very smart though as wanted to keep some for herself.

Last week 2:The summary of things that happened last week when i missed writing the blog.

Sunday/25th Oct:

Daylight saving begin so we are behind by one hour, which gives us extra hour to sleep :)
Monday/26th Oct:
Tana was home because of her one week break and drove me crazy !!
At home and nothing much happened because of the horrible weather, it was gloomy & cloudy.
Tuesday/27th Oct:
Went to Tana's friend's place for tea & samosas, it was a nice break for Tana ; Isha missed her afternoon siesta and i did not mind the chatting with the mommies !
Wednesday/ 28th Oct:
We went shopping to buy warm jackets & scarfs for the kiddo's. I have written the blog that day in detail :)
Thursday/ 29th Oct:
Nothing much to write about and I decided to write the blog only when something interesting was there to write instead of making it as a online diary and hence skipped it.

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Big day...."Udhyapan "

Tomorrow is a big day as it is the last Monday of my fasts and i shall be doing the "udhyapan".
Tana's school also starts and so back to regular routine. Hope all goes well.

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